You know, I am quickly learning that my author blog is unlike any other author blog.
Other authors either post stories–short and otherwise–or they put information about publishing their stories. (Maybe one day I’ll have that… We’ll see.) When I am perusing the blogs, I am looking for something more.
Lately, I have been going through a major self-doubt-a-thon. I’m on the final edits of my trilogy, completing all three books. The more I read it, the more I feel like it’s not written for the target age range or the characters get lost in certain parts. I’m constantly in doubt over whether my story is something that anyone would read.
I’m learning to overcome my self-doubt. It’s a lot of hard work… quite a few self-motivational pep talks… a constant taking of a time-out. I’m also learning that when something new comes my way in the realm of publishing, self-doubt comes back, rearing its ugly head, as though it was a fire-breathing dragon and I was a wizard without a spell to cast.
It’s always a work in progress. Pep talks are becoming my forte. I tell myself that if it weren’t meant to be, then I wouldn’t be doing it. That even if this series of books gets turned down flat, it doesn’t mean the next story or screenplay I write will.
The hardest part of authoring [for me] is conquering my self-doubt dragon. It’s got to be slayed so I can move into the castle to find my sword in the stone.
Which brings me back to the point I started this post with…
I searched through other blogs, hoping that another author posted about their fears and woes. I need to see that I’m not the only one suffering with this. Honestly, it feels like I am. My hope is that one day in the future, an aspiring author will come across this blog, read this post, and understand that they aren’t alone. I’ll be right there with them, whether I am still working on the trilogy or writing a whole new story.
I promise you, you aren’t alone.