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Book Proposal Question: What is your work like?

What published stories are similar to your unpublished work?

Umm…

I really don’t know.

It’s one of the toughest questions I must have an answer for on that book proposal.

The thing is, with the exception of the NYC romances I write, all of my stories are truly different from what’s out there.

For Love, Darrows/Love, Carter, I could say it’s like Rick Riordan’s Percy Jackson series. Yes, it does have some Greek myth magical elements and weirdness. It’s not really the same because it deals with LGBTQ themes, has Roman Myth elements and Gods, has a huge contemporary twist to it all. But it’s really too different. I could try to match it to a David Levithan story since he writes a lot of LGBTQ tales, but that’s some big shoes to step into. I’m about halfway through Simon and the Homo Sapien Agenda, and maybe I could compare to that, but at this point, I only see one minor thing that could connect the two stories. And the other stories I’ve read are too adult to compare, really.

This seems to be a thing that crosses from Human Touch to Darrows to Sync to…well, I won’t mention them since I’m not that far into writing them yet. My stories tend to be not like what’s on the shelves. That I’ve read or found anyway.

What I need is help. Or advice. Or both. How do I find similar books on shelves?
How can I compare if I’ve not read them?
Should I read them first before making those all-important comparisons?

I just don’t know. And Google hasn’t been much help.

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Reading Theme: September 2016

Long time, no post…

These past few months have been insane with a cross-country move. Between cleaning, packing, cleaning, unpacking, traveling, directing movers on both ends of the spectrum, and organizing, it’s been little to no fun.

And don’t get me started on writer’s block headaches. Reading books/fanfics/stories is suffering as much as writing right now. Total doldrums.

I need to find my way out of this funk. Fast. Get myself back into a schedule. I figure the best way to do that is to assign September a reading theme. But what do I choose?

September 2015’s theme (also about the time I started these posts) was anything RomCom. I could always go for some romance. *happy sigh* A little love. Some laughs. Ever so sweet with enough tension to make you root for the MC’s to get together. And a little happy dance when they finally do. Warms my heart and soul to read those stories.

But, the RomCom theme is now on a Been There, Done That sort of status. I don’t mind doing it again because I loved it so much, but I need to broaden my reading horizons.

I thought about turning this into a “School’s Starting Up” sort of theme, tackling the classic of literature. Story trauma in Lit class keeps me from doing it full throttle, though. So I turn to the class reading lists of high schools today: The Princess Bride, Peter Pan, Will Grayson Will Grayson, The Giver, The Alchemist and others like those. (I’ve seen both the Hunger Games and Divergent series on lists, but I’ve already read those.)

If only I could find my missing box of books, I’d have more to add to this list…

*heavy sigh*

Anyway, I figure it’s a great place to start.

September 2016’s theme: Back to School Reading

Seems boring enough, but I’ve had some of these books on my TBR lists for years. This should be the motivation I need to get them read. I plan to, anyway. Who knows, maybe a romcom will sneak its way into the reading list for this month. Only time will tell.

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Reading Theme ~ June 2016.

Ahhh…Summer. No more school for a while. Nothing to rush off and do until vacation. And the likely hood of brain rot is huge with all the binge-watching plans we have for shows–last season’s Pretty Little Liars, all seasons of Supernatural, iZombie from beginning to end (again), Baby Daddy (again) and Parks and Rec for laughs, Big Brother after dark … if the cast is fantastic…But, I digress.

All that watching without thinking? The mere idea gives my brain an empty-stomach sort of ache.

So I decided to kick off summer with something hearty and thick. I thought about the Stephen King novel about JFK’s assassination, 11/22/63, since I watched that series on HULU. It was a great story to watch. And I know the book will be different. But I think I’m looking for more of a challenge…

Bring in Mark Z. Danielewski’s House of Leaves.

I’ve been putting this book off for a few years. Someone gifted it to me one Christmas and told me it would burn my brain. *rolling eyes* I don’t quite believe them, but the book looks so daunting and confusing. Which is why I feel it’s time to get it underway. (Plus extra daylight hours for any potential scares and extra reading time every day…because you can’t read paper in the dark).

Luckily, I can read backwards, forwards, and upside down.

In case I manage to get out of that book with some semblance of sanity left, I think I’ll finally finish S. by JJ Abrams–who is still on the crap list for what he did…He knows what he did… But this argument is saved for a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away.

The problem I had with this book was flittering back and forth between the story and the other story made up of the notes–the story was too good to DNF it. I googled some advice and know what to do now. Read the story first, the side story second and one chapter at a time. I am still VERY determined on this one, though. It’s not the book’s fault I have ADHD when it comes to reading things like this. (story, side story, researching clues, solving clues…I’m so easily distracted.)

Theme: JUNE 2016 ~ House of S.

I know. Here’s hoping I survive.

What books are you kicking off summer with?


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Already started House of Leaves…wound up stuck in a loop and am working my way out. Ish.

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Sorta stressing about Wings.

I mean, I wrote this for fun, because I was desperate for something fun and romantic. I shouldn’t be stressing about it at all. I plan on sharing it even if no one chooses it. Period.

But that’s not why I am stressed. What is killing me is this feeling of being left out. I went through and read a lot of the #PitchMadness tweets to see if I’m missing out on something I need to do.

All those PitchMadness entries…one of the readers is going through their slush piles and tweeting out what she likes. They seem to want a lot of MG (middle grade…think Ramona the Pest types..which I used to write, when I had the readership), a lot of Sci-Fi…which I don’t write, and a lot of fantasy. Bleh. Again, not a genre I’m into as much. Sci-Fi and Fantasy really have to speak to me and most of them just don’t. Nothing to anyone who writes them, it’s not my genre.

The thing that’s eating me is she keeps mentioning how diverse characters are a plus. Love this diversity. More diverse characters… And I feel a little stung right now.

Charlie is Charlie. Let’s not delve too much into him right now. Violet is half Japanese, though you might find a slight mention about her in a picture with her mom. Darshan is Indian from India but from London where his family migrated to. Amala is African-American, kick ass and awesome in her own right. My story, their attributes have mentions few and far between, but to me, it really doesn’t make a difference what color they are. They’re people, living lives and trying to find love…just like everyone else on the planet. This story focuses on the love Charlie and Violet need to find. Period.

But I read things like that, and I think I’m screwed because I don’t flaunt it or constantly point it out. I understand that some people of color feel they deal with things every day. There are some who don’t feel they deal with racial differences every day (according to people’s FB posts on a similar topic).

So should I have mentioned how Darshan is Indian and his parents migrated from India to England because of a job? Should I keep pointing out that Amala is black and the daughter of a musician? Do I need to sit down and type out a detailed chapter of how Violet’s Japanese mom died when she was young, and her father can’t hardly look at her because she looks so much like her mom? Because that’s exactly what it feels like I should be doing to be considered as an author who embraces diverse characters. And I know nothing about any of that is in my first 250 and is barely touched on in the rest of the 68,000.

Too bad the world isn’t color blind. Not that I want all color erased, because THE WORLD WOULD BE SO BLAH without our differences–there is so much to love about our differences. But to feel left out because it seems like a qualifier, when I clearly qualify…

I really don’t want this to be the thing that qualifies me, though.

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Aaaaaannnnnndddddd…I’m done!!!

AAAARRRRGGGGHHHH The stress of it all!!!

I didn’t think I’d make it. For the past week and a half, I’ve been banging my head…

Thanks to Windows 10…which installed and worked great for like fifteen minutes…until it decides I need to restart and update everything  else on my computer. Then all it would do is flicker…the screen, anything I clicked for two minutes until I couldn’t move the arrow any more…the arrow keys weren’t working…And I had to restore my computer to an old point.

Then Word was having issues. And the doc I had saved and formatted wasn’t right anymore. It wouldn’t let me edit the doc saying it was locked. Meaning Windows 10 locked it? Or it thought I was someone else after install? I don’t know. Fine. I copied and pasted from a copy I had on file on my separate hard drive. The problem was, it was PDF and Word wouldn’t let me format that…Which I have done a zillion times before…but not this time.

And I had already sent in my PitchWars application…Like midnight the night before all this death and dismemberment happened. And I freaked out! I uninstalled and unregistered Word. Reinstalled and re-registered Word. I still couldn’t copy and paste, but I got the formatting to work again. I had no options left. It was either re-type in case a PitchWars Mentor chooses me or forfeit and pull Darrows from the competition.

Really, there was no choice. SO I’ve spent every day of the last week or so typing all 89,927 words into the proper format, ignoring all Twitter accounts, all emails…everyone. Although, I will say I had to take a few breaks every evening. I wound up doing research for a new story. And cried because I was worried I wouldn’t be finished in time. And cried because I hated ignoring everyone.

But I’m done! I can dance and celebrate and enjoy the stress of waiting on the PitchWars choices…Come, dance with me!!!

Also complete this past week:

  • The gross stage of going shampooless. I won’t ever use that awesome-smelling, frothy concoction ever again. My hair has never been better.
  • Cleaning off my desk–which was a major chore in itself…as in it hasn’t been cleaned off and organized in a year.
  • School shopping
  • Four über important calls including one to the garbage company about a $400 bill. O.o! Yeah. Turns out they coded my bill wrong. It’s fixed now. Heart attack averted.
  • Shoe shopping
  • Found a pair of Captain America socks for girls…for me, even if they are pink.
  • Named all the spiders in my life. Gave them super hero identities and mortal enemies.
  • Lament my dog today on National Dog Day. Love you Winston D Dog!!!

It’s been a productive week and a half or so. I feel like I can breathe again. My hands aren’t suffering through a severe case of the shakes anymore. And I am going to celebrate and watch some movies–a fangirl’s job is never done–and try to imagine the PitchWars wait time ending with a fantastic bang in the form of:

I’d like to see more Darrows.

Insert: *~*~*BOOMING AWESOMENESS! HERE*~*~*

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***Windows 10 is so not for me. I’ll keep my 7, thank you.

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