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Mr. Holland’s Opus

Anyone remember that movie?

It came out about the same time as Powder.

Both movies made me weep crocodile tears and kill off about thirty trees’ worth of tissues. They’re both one of those movies that I could only watch once, but I remember vividly and has yet to leave my mind.

Anyway…That’s the reference. The actual story for this post is this: I’ve decided that Human Touch may very well be my Mr. Holland’s Opus, but instead of creating the most beautiful piece of music, I’m trying to create a saga type tale along Harry Potter lines, minus the wizards, add ghosts, demons, but still witchery and religion mingling in a rom com YA.

Yeah, I still need a lot of work on finding the perfect genre for this sweeping series of stories that I would love to finish, that I want to share with other people, that I know is supposed to be out there in the universe somewhere rather than sitting in various Word docs and Scrivener files…and sitting in my brain.

This story has been ___ years in the making. The story idea started in my head in 2010, written out in a short “Note to Self” post-it on my computer–a literal post-it stuck to the laptop lid. 2011 it was a passing thought as I couldn’t figure out the story, the hook. 2012 it clicked when I was at Comic Con…and I was literally seven to ten people (depending if I let the others in my group go before me or after me) away from meeting someone while camping out for the Thursday Hall H opener. And after, I sat thinking, as most of the line was going to sleep…this is how my ghost would feel if this guy just missed her. She would be super bummed, like it should happen, but she’s a fracken ghost in love with a human…

And everything just became a waterfall. Possible names. Possible places. Events that go on in a high school senior’s life, things my ghost would have missed out on, the things that have changed from the 1980s to the (then) present day of 2012.

And this tale started spilling onto journal pages decorated with birds and trees. And when I had a rough plan, I began to type and type and type. Through tired fingers, tired brains, and temporary carpal tunnel as I’ve never typed that much before in a single sitting. Nikki and McClane came to life. The only thing I didn’t have, was an ending. Did I want to go typical HEA or did I want to go with reality?

I opted for HEA with a twist, leading to another book, then another, then another, then plans for two more just on their story, plans on four others for stories of other characters, then the alternate ending story which, truthfully is a book within itself (and almost completed in first draft now).

Spring 2013 – I had the first three books of Human Touch series typed. I call this first half of the series my baby, though it’s been said to never call it that. But in my eyes, it is. July to April to complete the three (very long) books in first draft. Nine long, learning filled months. The amount of time for a baby to grow and be born. My baby.

Fall 2013 – The first work was edited and formatted and re-written…a few times…then voila! I considered her done. Researched queries…which admittedly is still a weak point of mine…and sent them out. No after no. I’ve had about four personalized noes, feels like a thousand form noes, and a few that said it was great, but the genre was falling apart and they were taking less Paranormal Romance YA…which, this truly is being about ghosts…not that Vampire/Werewolf stuff they say is Paranormal. (THOSE ARE SUPERNATURAL!)

So fine. I put it away for a bit. Made some changes. Wound up expanding on the story. to over 150,000 words…and it still doesn’t cover everything.

And after taking out what was considered “non-essential” I had it down to 126,000…but it lost so much to me. Nikki’s personality was gone. Events that run through all six books, some through three, gone. Nothing made sense anymore. I hated it.

Summer 2014 – Queried that version. Again, the same amount of noes. pretty much just like that first list. So I put it away. Very far away. I even have drafts in a folder labeled: NEVER LOOK AT THESE AGAIN

Seriously. Those drafts are horrible. I hate them, but I refuse to delete them. Reminders of how terribly things can go wrong when writing.

Fall 2014 – Started another series, Love, Darrows. (As if I hadn’t written Last Man Standing, Life Imitating Art, Life Inspiring Art, and an untitled novella in there.) And it took a while to find my style and voice. I am pithy. I am also very verbose. (150,000 + words for one book!…*looking at Order of the Phoenix and wondering the comparison on that.*) I don’t like info dumps, though everyone critiquing my story (except the BFF and someone whose opinion on writing I trust more than Honest Abe) kept harping on show don’t tell. But I was showing. Maybe not in long-winded descriptions like most authors seem to do, like most agents seem to like as these books/stories are published. I think it detracts from the story. (see also The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo) I think describing bits and pieces that are important works with all of the events going on in the story. You’re getting the story. You’re getting the descriptions. You don’t need to know that McClane is in a western style shirt that is blue plaid with small black lines broken up with white and a t-shirt under that came from some band Nikki thinks is fake because Thirty Seconds to Mars makes no sense, though DeLoreans going 88 mph to time travel makes perfect sense, and how those items pair well with his tight denim jeans then the boots, cowboy not work, but I’ve seen some places where even the color of the shoelaces have been described just to paint the complete picture.

I hate it.

So it would go with me that Nikki would notice the worn jeans that are just right tight. She would jaw drop at those old boots of his, as though he’s been riding out on the range all day and is just now swooping into town all dusty. But then they talk… He says, “Hey, Kitten. You ready?” as “Hi, Cowboy,” wisps from her in a quiet breath. She can’t think of an answer to the rest. That hours later, during a hug, Thirty Seconds to Mars must make some great music. That t-shirt has been worn a thousand times, because it’s the softest thing she’s rested her cheek on. McClane’s football-sculpted chest rock was hard though. Then during their moonlight stroll, he offered her this cowboy shirt that was blue, plaid, and thin when she was shuddering from the cold breeze swarming them.

Something like that. That’s not even a part of the story which is how easy those characters are for me to write.

So here we are. 2015. Summer-ish. The story has been put away for a year now. One whole year–with the small exception of formatting a chapter for self-pub(?) here and there as writer’s block hits or I am too tired and it’s easier to type what I see than think. . And these characters are screaming at me. Like taking Cruz, Tyler, and Jamie–three guys from the newest story I’m writing–and shoving them to the side as though they aren’t important. McClane, Nikki, and Jaden are screaming at me, “Pay attention to us!” And a thought hit…what if I took my longest draft to date (the 156,000+ one) and kept the events the same, because they are perfect, and used my way of show not tell, only highlighting the most important things to these characters instead of painting out every little detail like I have.

And yesterday, since it was bothering me and I couldn’t go to sleep until I had it done…

I took chapter two…the real, almost original start to my story, the moment I love…it starts with him and her and it will end with him and her…and typed it out as though Nikki was talking through Quentin with less poetry. So far, I’ve condensed 2,505 words down to 1,600, and divided two-thirds of a chapter into two smaller chapters.

I rather like it. This is just a smidge more Nikki from the first drafts then the rambling long-windedness I hate.

So I’m now toying with writing the rest like this. Like Quentin without the poetry, but with the voice on an 18-year-old girl from 1989. Like it was. Taking this format that a few agents have liked enough to ask for full drafts of Darrows…That maybe there is a light to the end of this Human Touch tunnel

My Opus.


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Human Touch.

Here it is. The cover. I made it myself. It reflects the story as well as fitting the rest of the series with some minor adjustments to the cover for each book.

*deep breath*

This is it. I’m going to put this out there. On my own. The first chapter will be going out soon. And I’m working on typing the others into proper format…and there she goes.

*heavy sigh*

My first-born novel is going to be taking her first steps soon.
I’m nervous. Excited. Scared to death.

This is her birth announcement.

Human Touch.


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I’m not holding my breath.

For anything to come from #PitchWars this time around. Only because anyone I’ve submitted to (with the exception of one, I think) has been tweeting how they’re already requesting pages, manuscripts, etc from the stories they seem to love the most and my email sits as dormant as Mt. Saint Helens for all those years as far as #PitchWars is concerned.

I’m not upset, nor have I given up hope. But I am still working toward my alternate plan of self-publishing before the end of the year. Because one way or another, I am putting this story out there for all to read…and I hope a few likes, too.

I’ve been piecing together the longer version of this story. Especially since during the major cut down, the order of things were rearranged. It’s a process, and I’ve got to say…I LOVE the longer version so much more. All her little 80s things and more descriptive thoughts make this story SO MUCH BETTER. Honestly, I don’t know why I ever cut it away…except someone out there keeps saying word counts are important.

This morning, I’ve been scouring the internet for stock images and the costs of said images. HOLY COW! One place wants $400 for the picture I love the most. It works the best for what I have in mind–what’s always been in my mind for the cover for Human Touch–but I’m not sure I can shell out $400 without making my kids starve for this artist. Seriously. $400 for a picture. Maybe I chose the wrong artist game for the creative things I like to do–paint, photograph (see header pic), write, make art books/journals.

Anyway, I did use the crappy tagged up version of that pic just to do a mock-up of the cover I’ve always seen. I used a commercial use background ( I bought years ago by Celine Designs), the tagged up small pic, and BV Rondes free font…and this is it! My cover:

cover mock-up: Human Touch…first book in the series

It’s like tears want to cascade down my cheeks in the utmost happiness a writer can cry. It’s perfect, beautiful (except the crappy pics that cut crappy in PS, too), amazing, awesome, and so many other words I can’t find because it truly makes me speechless.

I am so ready for this… I can’t wait!!!

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It’s been a while.

Between Comic Con and now a move, I’ve been so busy.

While I’ve been packing, I’ve been thinking about the trilogy I’ve written. I’ve been thinking about a few other stories, too. I’ve managed to come to a few conclusions with a few solid decisions for what I need to do with my stories.

Since attending the agent panel at Comic Con, I have so much information about finding an agent. My word count question was finally answered. Each of the six or seven agents on the panel said they do not consider word count when looking through the query pile. So, with the first story of the trilogy, I have decided to revert back to the better draft, the larger word count draft and requery towards November or December, maybe even January. If the requeries aren’t accepted, I’ll reconsider then as to self-publishing or going to a small independent publisher that considers stories directly or just requerying again.

Then I had a story that I wrote a while ago. It’s a twenty-two chapter tale, somewhat a drama romance deal. I want to revamp it and make it a stand alone. This is the one I will self-publish for either free or 99 cents or something on Amazon. I had it public and free for years, so I’m not looking to make money from it. I’m going to see if I like self-pubbing. I want to see how it works and differs from what I know of publishing otherwise. Who knows, if I like it, if I find it easy, I can do the trilogy this way. It will be the new Wool. (Which is a great series if you haven’t read it, btw.)

As for writing, I’m currently working on the fifth novel. Yeah. Fifth. The trilogy, a stand alone written over the summer, and now this one. That doesn’t include the outlines I have for another three books that follow my original trilogy, a story I wrote most of a few years ago but never finished with the death of my father that I’m going to tackle, and one for another romcom story, whether it will be a book or a screenplay has yet to be determined.

I just need to get this move out of the way and begin all over again with things. I can’t wait!

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