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#PitchWars is here!

I’M SO F#$<*&@ NERVOUS!!!!

Sorry, Cap.

Anyway, as I’m sitting and deciding on whether I’ve chosen the right mentors for my story…
Should I really submit the revamped Darrows? Because it is somewhat a repeat.
Who should I really submit to? Because they can help make me or break me right now.
Is every single person who read that story being sugary and fluffy with their praises or are they being so-very-true blue?

I just now–like literally right this second–remembered that I hadn’t even done a #PitchWars Bio for this year. Not that much has changed since last year. I’m still writing and unpubbed, except now I’m also serving up coffee and talking to everyone under the sun at my coffee-house job…

The story I’m submitting:

Love, Darrows

This is the retelling of the whole Cupid tale from myths of yore. And I say it like that because most people think of Cupid as being Greek myth, but he started out in Roman myth circles. Which my story touches on both here and there. The twist to my Cupid tale is the fact that my Cupid is gay. Plus, there is a Psyche (the original Cupid’s love) but I’ve included the other erotes and Greek/Roman myth characters and stories to create a modern-day, high school Cupid with his own unique story and personality. Quentin Darrows is seventeen–a poetic little $#!+, too–and in love with his best friend who loves to date anyone, male and female alike. And this poor Cupid is just trying to cope with it all.

(Quentin is going to kill me for using this Cupid image. He really doesn’t like babies in diapers being Cupid.)

Love, Darrows is a modern take on a Cupid who can’t control his own love life with his phone app arrows, so he fights for his boyfriend, Lex, in any way he can. The story I am submitting it part one and part two, Love, Carter, completes the tale.

What I am ready to do:

I am ready to rip this baby apart if I have to. I want to learn and make QUENTIN THE BEST DERN CUPID ever! I want to get his story out there and into the world. Give him the wings to fly because I know when he does, he’ll fly far! I’m ready to work hard and absorb all the advice a mentor wants to give. Be harsh with me, because I need the honesty to get my story living. I’ll stay up all night. Work all day, except when I’m working, and even then I’d be working on Darrows.

I just look forward to having new eyes and new thoughts on something that’s been with me for years.

Even if I’m not chosen, MY ULTIMATE GOAL IS TO GET DARROWS PUBLISHED.

What I typically write:

Usually my stories fall into a million different categories. Well, except for my NYC-RomComs. I write adult and YA. I usually go contemporary with my tales, though I’ve been in and out and twisted around almost every genre out there–Paranormal, supernatural, retellings, rom coms, myths, knights and princesses, angels and demons, ghosts, dystopians, mystery, space, and superheroes[ish]–with the exception of horror.

What I read:

I like almost any kind of story. Romances tend to be in my top picks (most recently Mónica B. Wagner’s Frosh series and Rachel Van Dyken’s The Matchmaker’s Playbook series). I love a good non-romantic series (see the Lunar Chronicles and Divergent). Graphic novels–Scott Pilgrim, Agent Carter, Spider-Gwen, and Ms. Marvel are among the tops ones I read.

Well…I just love a really good book I don’t want to put down but then I regret when I finish reading because I want to keep those characters and events with me forever.

Favorite Movies/TV/Netflix/Hulu

In other words, random stuff that has nothing to do with writing, yet has somehow inspired me in so many ways.

Anything Chris Evans, my favorite being What’s Your Number?

And Scott Pilgrim…

I like Captain America, The Avengers, Underoos (aka Spider-man), Back to the Future, Star Wars (Han Solo), Guardians of the Galaxy, Parks and Rec, The Office, Rick and Morty, Supernatural, Brooklyn-9-9, Stranger Things, The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, Friends from College, iZombie, Game of Thrones…

I CAN’T BELIEVE CAP KISSED MARGERY TYRELL!!! *WORLDS COLLIDE*

…Westworld, you name it and I’ve probably watched it. Almost anything you can find at a Comic Con panel or that will make me laugh. Or sigh. Or go awww, or even just…

Random things about me:

I am becoming a polyglot.

I speak American natively, and I have many years of Spanish under my belt. Recently, I started learning French, Norwegian, and Japanese. (I have plans for Swedish and Italian in the future.) I can already label some items and ask questions in French and Norwegian. I also can recognize a lot of Hiragana on packages (and read a few things) when I’m shopping at Daiso–Japan’s answer to the dollar store.

Daiso is one of my favorite places to go.

I have a growing collection of Funko figures. Mostly Captain Americas. The first one I owned  was Han Solo I found back in 2011/2012. Then Marty McFly and Doc. Then Chewbacca. Then when Cap came out…and so on and so on…

Recently, I used a plastic Coca-cola crate and turned it into a shelf for my Toby Stanks (yes, I did that on purpose. #TeamCap #SorryNotSorry) and Underoos Funko figures on the other side of the room from Cap and me.

I like photoshopping photos into looking like a comic or something someone drew. (This is one I did for a coffee project at work.)

I am allergic to sulfites, meaning that virtually everything I eat will make me sick–including my beloved fruits and veggies. I was never vegetarian but I really don’t like meat especially without ketchup or a sauce or seasoning.
The only thing I like without that stuff is the Flying Dutchman from In-N-Out. So I’m there a few days a week.

Despite my allergies and my body’s inability to handle food properly, I have managed to lose almost 100 pounds…which is a great feat, IMO. It’s still a work in progress, though.

I always wanted a Captain America sweater, but when I couldn’t find one that not everyone else would have, I looked up knitting patterns and figured out how to knit my own…It’s a great comfy sweater perfect for reading and rainy, cold days.

I like to draw.

I now draw the boards for my store.

this isn’t the best one, but it is the most recent.

 

L’il Sebastian. Because…

 

And…well…if you haven’t guessed by now, I’m a HUGE fan of Chris Evans. He has the BEST SOUL anyone could own.
Everyone at work picks on me, a lot of people roll their eyes, but I will defend him/that fact to the death.

MY FAVORITE CAP IMAGE:

Why? Because it always reminds me that when things look bleak, when you’re feeling down, when all looks lost in the world, keep fighting, keep hoping, keep working and you will come out of it a better person and hopefully on top of it all.

I plan on staring at this one a lot in the coming weeks when the mentor/mentee teams are announced. (And hopefully long after as I’m readying Darrows with my mentor’s help.)

Well, it’s time…

Time to begin. Isn’t it? (sorry, channeling Imagine Dragons there) Time to get those mentors listed and get Darrows into the mix.

*deep breath*

Thanks for taking the time to read. And sorry about the fangirly me. (not too sorry, though. it is who I am.)

GOOD LUCK TO ALL WHO ARE ENTERING!!!
SEE YOU GUYS ON THE FLIP-SIDE!

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all images are mine.

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#AmWriting – It’s been a while…

…since I’ve done one of these posts. Not that I haven’t been writing.

Recently, one of my CP’s asked if I had anything he could read. Since I’ve not started on the novel, and the last one I finished was the “RomCom for myself”, and the current one is nothing I plan on publishing in any way, shape, or form, I told him that there was nothing. But then it stuck me like lightning to someone on the golf course with a club in the air… My novel: SoS…Sync or Swim. It’s been in draft two status since last September(?), August(?). Maybe even July(?). In other words I haven’t bothered with it since last summer sometime. For me the story has this gap where it starts to feel different. The problem is I can’t find it myself. So I forked over the first chapter and hopefully, by the end of this year, I can call it done and finally have it on the query circuit.

That’s the current edit project. Now, the current writing projects:

I’m sure I lost most of my followers by posting my fan fiction piece, “Hey, 6B.” here on this blog. But, for reasons I will not disclose, I feel like I was destined to do it. Plus, it’s been great at keeping focused on something other than the real life insanity that I have going on…and the one thing I have yet to click about the new novel I’ve been plotting.

“Hey, 6B.” will finish being posted within a week or so. I apologize for that to those of you who are following that could care less or aren’t into that sort of stuff. I thank the few readers I do have for this story. Not that the numbers mean anything to me. It’s a special thing to have a few people reading something I’m doing for fun and going along the ride. Especially since I’ve not pimped out this story in anyway…and a few people found it on their own. It means a lot. Thank you. So very much.

Up next, a quick one-shot story that will not be posted here. Then a birthday tale for one of the best RobSquaders I know (someone I’ve ‘known’ online since the EARLY Twilight days). Again, not going to be posted here. So then why am I even mentioning them? Because in my mind, I have until the end of the second one (or the first depending one what I get done when) to get this new novel’s quirk worked out. I just need that one detail that gives this story a unique purpose. Something not cliché or typical. It’s right there within my grasp, so close…

Because that GIANT WRITING GOAL of getting started on this story looms in my near future. IF I could just Indiana Jones grab it and get the ball boulder rolling…


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As always, D.

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Daydreaming of Charlie Everett…

Not that I’m experiencing a writer’s block of any sort. Just thinking ahead as to what I have left to write of Charlie and Violet’s story in Wings. Thinking about the now three questions I have left to answer, and the two extra characters I need to use before the story ends. Because it’s getting close. Just typed out and finished chapter twenty-one today. The question is: Will I proceed to 22 or will I work on something else? Because I just am not ready to give Charlie and Violet an ending yet. Because I love them and once they’re done, I won’t get to spend time with them…well, not as much and not in this capacity.

Sometimes, I just listen to the story’s soundtrack that I build as I go and think over the events and characters. Sometimes I draw out floorplans and diagrams in my journals. This time, I photoshopped. I sort of took Charlie (Chris Evans inspiration) and made him into a graphic novel character. What kind of superhero would he be? Definitely a quirky, fumbling, awkward hero that shines no matter what. (Think along the lines of The Tick or Too Much Coffee Man).

And then I made an alternate possible cover image for the book, though I will say Wings refers to something other than angel wings. This is just my weird obsession.

I’ve discovered a few things while picturing in Photoshop. It’s clear I’m about four chapters away from the end now. I know whose POVs need to be done and pretty much in what order, though one chapter could be told from either POV. I know when and where the answers will come. Maybe within a week I’ll have them typed(?)–*heavy sigh*–though I am far from ready to end this story…because I LOVE it so much! If this could be turned into a film, I’d watch it as many times as I have seen What’s Your Number?…which, let’s say is VERY WELL SO FAR OVER 100, I’m looking in the rear-view mirror and 100 is parsecs away.

Am I the only one who finds it difficult to type THE END on a beloved story?

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Happy New Year!

It feels like it’s been forever and a day since I’ve been here.

Maybe it’s because it’s been forever and a day since I’ve been here.
I mean November 17th feels like a lifetime ago thanks to the busyness and family over the holidays.

Old News:

I didn’t finish my tale in time for NaNoWriMo, but that doesn’t mean I’ve not been working on it when time is gifted to me. It’s just over half way…maybe two thirds of the way complete. And I love it now more than ever! My Charlie is a total “To *sigh* for…”

Star Wars – Episode VII: The Force Awakens … No spoilers, promise. I just have to say I saw it Thursday the 17th of December. I had tears and goosebumps and I LOVED it so much as well as deciding to pen a scathing email to JJ Abrams about why I LOVED it and not… It was amazing. I have theories upon theories of what’s to come, including Rey’s history. We have our teams here, too: Pro Han/Leia, Con Luke… And Kylo Ren…Ugh. BB-8 is the most adorable droid. I’ve always considered Artoo a toddler, and now I consider BB the adorable dog… Just so much to say…but again, I am going to keep this spoiler free.

Holidays were a blast, and so busy, and stressful, and just some good [and yet puzzling, literally] times.

New news:

Hoping everyone’s new year is off to the greatest of all starts. So far, this is a fantastic year! Even if I started off by getting sick for Christmas and am still trying to rid the bug. But, being bed ridden means I got to fulfill a promise I made to a youngling and have been binge watching PLL. Finally, right?

Pretty Little Liars, thanks to Netflix….I’m trying to think of why I hadn’t watched this show before. Currently halfway through season 3. I know the first A. Thanks to a spoiler addict, I know the second A, but that didn’t stop me from screaming at the screen when I saw Toby in a certain type of outfit at the end of an episode… Don’t think I’ve yelled that much at a screen since Breaking Dawn part 2…when certain things happened. (Sadly or not, that’s entirely true.) So, please, if you are ahead of me, no spoilers, I beg of you.

Onto…

I Resolute:

I’m not sure that’s the correct word, but (1) I like the way it sounds/looks up there, and (2) I always make up my own words for things so it wouldn’t surprise me if it is wrong. I don’t typically share my plans for the year, but then I typically don’t make plans for the year…Not that I’m lackadaisical, I just don’t. But, for some reason, this year I did make a few to share. (Maybe it’s because of the nine theme I’m going with for the year.)

  1. Finish Wings. Pretty easy as it’s almost done. Will I publish it, though? Meh. Probably not. I’m totally writing this for myself because I have had a Dickens of a time trying to find a sweet, typical-yet-different romcom to read…hell, to watch since most I’ve seen about a million times over and am craving something new.
  2. Write, write, write. I have another story idea that seems to want to bloom…so okay. That one may be a “publisher” when all is said and done. Then HT seems to be invading my daydreams lately…so I may pull out the opus and work away on it again.
  3. Put more of my works out there. Whether it’s sending to agents, putting them here in some capacity, on the road to getting published, or even taking it to self-pub or free site levels. In some way, this needs to be done before 2016 is out.
  4. Read more, review more. 100 books to be exact. At least according to my Goodreads reading goal challenge I filled out a few days ago. Already have one book read. 99 left to go for 2016.
  5. Blog more. Why? Because maybe I don’t do it enough [according to the internet rules for authors]. Although if I am blogging more, I’ll definitely be blathering on about either something fangirly or something on my mind…which might not be as good as I think.
  6. Eat pizza again. Stupid to resolute that, but I miss food. Sulphite (Sulfite) allergies SUCK! And I am so starving to death, though I may not look like it. PIZZA! PLEASE! Plain cheese…I’m even desperate enough to do rice or gluten-free crusts…just YES!
  7. Help kids/pets more. I do already help out with kids through a school, but ever since I heard this story of this toddler being left alone at Children’s hospital because his family couldn’t stay with him…i still cry…it’s the saddest thing that they had to leave this toddler behind…and I want to go up there, play and talk to them because they need to know they have someone on their side. My biggest problem is finding enough time in a day. I’m seriously thinking of forgoing my yearly trek to San Diego for Comic Con this summer and hanging out with those kids instead. It would definitely be more fulfilling. A child with a smile you gave them is better than all the panels and autographs in the world. Pets…I want to help at the animal shelters…if only I could move past the attachment thing I do with animals. Ask my mom about the snakes, turtles, crayfish, dogs, cats and whatever other animals I’d find in the street and bring home to either set free as it should be, find a home for, or even find the owners of…I’d have kept them all if she had let me.
  8. Try to lose weight again. After the sulphite (sulfite–I keep doing this because no one can agree how to spell it, though I’ve noticed the ‘ph’ is more abroad than US) scare last September/October, I haven’t done any exercising. Not because I don’t want to, but because I don’t want to go to the hospital because I can’t breathe again or wind up with a reaction so bad, I look like a horrible creature crawling from a pit of lava–again.
  9. You think for this last one, I’d put something major, something awesomely philanthropic, or something life-altering. It is to me, though no one else would get it…but I know I’m close to this…and maybe this is my year. But it is a very private, a soul-searching thing…I resolute it, but I won’t say it here.

No worries, though. If 9 does happen, I think I’d blab it here third…after my friends and something…maybe.

I do hope this new year brings about happiness and prosperity for all of you.
Just remember: There’s nothing like a laugh and a smile.

HAPPY 2016!

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Mr. Holland’s Opus

Anyone remember that movie?

It came out about the same time as Powder.

Both movies made me weep crocodile tears and kill off about thirty trees’ worth of tissues. They’re both one of those movies that I could only watch once, but I remember vividly and has yet to leave my mind.

Anyway…That’s the reference. The actual story for this post is this: I’ve decided that Human Touch may very well be my Mr. Holland’s Opus, but instead of creating the most beautiful piece of music, I’m trying to create a saga type tale along Harry Potter lines, minus the wizards, add ghosts, demons, but still witchery and religion mingling in a rom com YA.

Yeah, I still need a lot of work on finding the perfect genre for this sweeping series of stories that I would love to finish, that I want to share with other people, that I know is supposed to be out there in the universe somewhere rather than sitting in various Word docs and Scrivener files…and sitting in my brain.

This story has been ___ years in the making. The story idea started in my head in 2010, written out in a short “Note to Self” post-it on my computer–a literal post-it stuck to the laptop lid. 2011 it was a passing thought as I couldn’t figure out the story, the hook. 2012 it clicked when I was at Comic Con…and I was literally seven to ten people (depending if I let the others in my group go before me or after me) away from meeting someone while camping out for the Thursday Hall H opener. And after, I sat thinking, as most of the line was going to sleep…this is how my ghost would feel if this guy just missed her. She would be super bummed, like it should happen, but she’s a fracken ghost in love with a human…

And everything just became a waterfall. Possible names. Possible places. Events that go on in a high school senior’s life, things my ghost would have missed out on, the things that have changed from the 1980s to the (then) present day of 2012.

And this tale started spilling onto journal pages decorated with birds and trees. And when I had a rough plan, I began to type and type and type. Through tired fingers, tired brains, and temporary carpal tunnel as I’ve never typed that much before in a single sitting. Nikki and McClane came to life. The only thing I didn’t have, was an ending. Did I want to go typical HEA or did I want to go with reality?

I opted for HEA with a twist, leading to another book, then another, then another, then plans for two more just on their story, plans on four others for stories of other characters, then the alternate ending story which, truthfully is a book within itself (and almost completed in first draft now).

Spring 2013 – I had the first three books of Human Touch series typed. I call this first half of the series my baby, though it’s been said to never call it that. But in my eyes, it is. July to April to complete the three (very long) books in first draft. Nine long, learning filled months. The amount of time for a baby to grow and be born. My baby.

Fall 2013 – The first work was edited and formatted and re-written…a few times…then voila! I considered her done. Researched queries…which admittedly is still a weak point of mine…and sent them out. No after no. I’ve had about four personalized noes, feels like a thousand form noes, and a few that said it was great, but the genre was falling apart and they were taking less Paranormal Romance YA…which, this truly is being about ghosts…not that Vampire/Werewolf stuff they say is Paranormal. (THOSE ARE SUPERNATURAL!)

So fine. I put it away for a bit. Made some changes. Wound up expanding on the story. to over 150,000 words…and it still doesn’t cover everything.

And after taking out what was considered “non-essential” I had it down to 126,000…but it lost so much to me. Nikki’s personality was gone. Events that run through all six books, some through three, gone. Nothing made sense anymore. I hated it.

Summer 2014 – Queried that version. Again, the same amount of noes. pretty much just like that first list. So I put it away. Very far away. I even have drafts in a folder labeled: NEVER LOOK AT THESE AGAIN

Seriously. Those drafts are horrible. I hate them, but I refuse to delete them. Reminders of how terribly things can go wrong when writing.

Fall 2014 – Started another series, Love, Darrows. (As if I hadn’t written Last Man Standing, Life Imitating Art, Life Inspiring Art, and an untitled novella in there.) And it took a while to find my style and voice. I am pithy. I am also very verbose. (150,000 + words for one book!…*looking at Order of the Phoenix and wondering the comparison on that.*) I don’t like info dumps, though everyone critiquing my story (except the BFF and someone whose opinion on writing I trust more than Honest Abe) kept harping on show don’t tell. But I was showing. Maybe not in long-winded descriptions like most authors seem to do, like most agents seem to like as these books/stories are published. I think it detracts from the story. (see also The Girl with The Dragon Tattoo) I think describing bits and pieces that are important works with all of the events going on in the story. You’re getting the story. You’re getting the descriptions. You don’t need to know that McClane is in a western style shirt that is blue plaid with small black lines broken up with white and a t-shirt under that came from some band Nikki thinks is fake because Thirty Seconds to Mars makes no sense, though DeLoreans going 88 mph to time travel makes perfect sense, and how those items pair well with his tight denim jeans then the boots, cowboy not work, but I’ve seen some places where even the color of the shoelaces have been described just to paint the complete picture.

I hate it.

So it would go with me that Nikki would notice the worn jeans that are just right tight. She would jaw drop at those old boots of his, as though he’s been riding out on the range all day and is just now swooping into town all dusty. But then they talk… He says, “Hey, Kitten. You ready?” as “Hi, Cowboy,” wisps from her in a quiet breath. She can’t think of an answer to the rest. That hours later, during a hug, Thirty Seconds to Mars must make some great music. That t-shirt has been worn a thousand times, because it’s the softest thing she’s rested her cheek on. McClane’s football-sculpted chest rock was hard though. Then during their moonlight stroll, he offered her this cowboy shirt that was blue, plaid, and thin when she was shuddering from the cold breeze swarming them.

Something like that. That’s not even a part of the story which is how easy those characters are for me to write.

So here we are. 2015. Summer-ish. The story has been put away for a year now. One whole year–with the small exception of formatting a chapter for self-pub(?) here and there as writer’s block hits or I am too tired and it’s easier to type what I see than think. . And these characters are screaming at me. Like taking Cruz, Tyler, and Jamie–three guys from the newest story I’m writing–and shoving them to the side as though they aren’t important. McClane, Nikki, and Jaden are screaming at me, “Pay attention to us!” And a thought hit…what if I took my longest draft to date (the 156,000+ one) and kept the events the same, because they are perfect, and used my way of show not tell, only highlighting the most important things to these characters instead of painting out every little detail like I have.

And yesterday, since it was bothering me and I couldn’t go to sleep until I had it done…

I took chapter two…the real, almost original start to my story, the moment I love…it starts with him and her and it will end with him and her…and typed it out as though Nikki was talking through Quentin with less poetry. So far, I’ve condensed 2,505 words down to 1,600, and divided two-thirds of a chapter into two smaller chapters.

I rather like it. This is just a smidge more Nikki from the first drafts then the rambling long-windedness I hate.

So I’m now toying with writing the rest like this. Like Quentin without the poetry, but with the voice on an 18-year-old girl from 1989. Like it was. Taking this format that a few agents have liked enough to ask for full drafts of Darrows…That maybe there is a light to the end of this Human Touch tunnel

My Opus.

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